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Toxic Shock [17 Apr 2008|04:23pm]
Paige sat on the bed stiffly, she knows she looks nervous and she tries not to fidget or do anything else that will give her away.

Karen walks into the room, cool and confident as always. In one hand she carries a lit cigarette, the mottled packet and a lighter, in the other, a giant bottle of cheap vodka and two blue martini glasses. She puts the cigarette in her mouth, drops the rest of the things on the bed and turns towards a set of draws. Exhaling the smoke through her nose, she opens the draw and retrieves a box of tampons.

She jumps on the bed next to Paige, the ash from her cigarette falls on the duvey but Karen doesn't care shes rummaging through the box as if trying to find the perfect tampon. Paige watches her intently, throughly confused but fascinated all the same. Finally Karen's hand emerges holding two tiny zip-locked bags each containing a tiny blue pill.

Her eyes are gleaming as her takes the cigarette out of her mouth and grinning she says

"I call them Toxic Shocks."

Paige knew what she was about to do was wrong, she knew there were laws, she knew it was dangerous. But she also knew that the sensible, boring, goody-two-shoes Paige had to die. It was time. This was university not high school, this is what she had left home for - to live. To live a life that someone could write about and that someone else could read without falling asleep! This was the moment she had been waiting for, the moment where, finally, Paige Williams became interesting.

Karen handed her a glass and before her sense could catch up with her, Paige but the pill in her mouth and swallowed. Her life had changed forever.
3 orgasms : sex me up

[13 Apr 2007|10:20pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Today is Friday the 13th. Today is also my parents 22nd wedding aniversary. Thats the copper anniversay if u were wondering. which is good. because i like copper and i like having parents that like each other. 22 is also my street number. so that important. ya ya ya.

im bored. the problem with living in hamilton is its lonely @ night cos im like in a little room all by myself.(xcept on wednesday's wen i sit in claire's room til 2am talking yipee!!) and now my whole families out living interesting lives and i feel like im back in hamilton. except with internet. and a phone. not that im using it. but there is one.

man imagine 22 years. crazy. marty and i have broken my record of how long ive been with one person but that was only 21 months!! golly gosh. marriage. crazy. 22 years.

i hate being alone for too long - not talking hurts my soul!!!

im gonna go talk to my cat or sumthing!


1 orgasm : sex me up

[30 Oct 2006|04:25am]
[ mood | contemplative ]

hmmmmmmmmmmm i was gona write sumfin deep and then my ipod started playing the beatles now im not so serious lol! i <3 the beatles! "happy ever after in the market place"

man everyone is so twisted lately! i went with benny and bought him cigarettes after skool and then we went to jelicoe and smoked winding around the trees so no one wud see us being nawty nawty <3 lol it was fun! and rainy and windy! anyway we wer talking bout how munted everyone is behaving. its kinda crazy. hormones and stress! hava wank honestly! j/k nah but has anyone noticed everyone else? its weird. "sexy sadie" Sadie's a pretty name but i cud never name a kid that cos i cant say "S" properly!!!

"my guitar gently weeps"

hope i get tickets to the halloween party even tho i dont really wana go i wana do sumfin!!! and do it in COSTUME!!!! any way...um im not deep enough to keep going.... <3

sex me up

94 [21 Sep 2006|05:06pm]
[ mood | discontent ]

(do it cunts see whos the biggest loser lol)

SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 85 movies, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen.
There are 169 movies on this list.
Put your score in header and repost:

[_] Nacho Libre
[x] Grease
[x] Pirates of the Caribbean
[x] Pirates of the caribbean 2
[x] Orange County
[x] The Green Mile
[x] Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory
[x] Neverending Story
[x] Blazing Saddles
[_] Airplane! (called Flying High in Australia)
[_] Red Eye
[_] Stick It
[_] Shes the Man
[x] 8 Mile

Total so far: 9

[x] The Princess Bride
[_] SNL's The Best of Will Ferrell
[x] Napoleon Dynamite
[_] Fun With Dick and Jane
[_] Saw
[_] Saw II
[_] White Noise
[_] White Oleander
[x] Anger Management
[x] 50 First Dates
[x] The Princess Diaries
[_] The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement

Total so far: 14

[x] Scream
[x] Scream 2
[x] Scream 3
[x] Scary Movie
[x] Scary Movie 2
[x] Scary Movie 3
[x] Scary Movie 4
[x] American Pie
[x] American Pie 2
[x] American Wedding
[_] American Pie Band Camp

Total so far: 24

[x] Harry Potter
[x] Harry Potter 2
[x] Harry Potter 3
[x] Harry Potter 4
[x] Resident Evil I
[_] Resident Evil 2
[x] The Wedding Singer
[_] Cinderella Man
[x] The Village
[_] Lilo & Stitch

Total so far: 31

[x] Finding Nemo
[x] Finding Neverland
[x] Signs
[_] The Grinch
[x] Texas Chainsaw Massacre
[_] White Chicks
[x] Butterfly Effect
[x] 13 Going on 30
[x] I, Robot
[_] Robots

Total so far: 38

[_] Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
[_] Universal Soldier
[_] Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
[_] Along Came Polly
[x] Deep Impact
[_] KingPin
[x] Meet The Parents
[_] Meet the Fockers
[_] Eight Crazy Nights
[_] Joe Dirt
[x] King Kong

Total so far: 41

[x] A Cinderella Story
[_] The Terminal
[_] The Lizzie McGuire Movie
[_] Passport to Paris
[_] Dumb & Dumber
[_] Dumber & Dumberer
[x] Final Destination
[x] Final Destination 2
[_] Final Destination 3
[_] Halloween
[x] The Ring
[x] The Ring 2
[_] Surviving X-MAS
[x] Flubber
[_] Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
[x] Practical Magic
[x] Chicago
[x] Ghost Ship
[x] From Hell
[_] Hellboy
[_] Secret Window
[_] I Am Sam
[x] The Whole Nine Yards

Total so far: 52

[x] The Day After Tomorrow
[_] Child's Play
[_] Seed of Chucky
[_] Bride of Chucky
[x] 10 Things I Hate About You
[_] Just Married
[x] Gothika
[_] Nightmare on Elm Street
[_] Sixteen Candles
[x] Remember the Titans
[x] Coach Carter
[x] The Grudge
[x] The Mask
[_] Son Of The Mask

Total so far: 59
[x] Bad Boys 2
[_] Joy Ride (it's called road kill in Australia)
[_] Lucky Number Seven
[x] Ocean's Eleven
[_] Ocean's Twelve
[_] Identity
[_] Lone Star
[x] Bedazzled
[_] Predator I
[_] Predator II
[x] Superstar
[_] Ice Age
[x] Ice Age 2: The Meltdown

Total so far: 64

[x] Independence Day
[_] Cujo
[_] A Bronx Tale
[_] Darkness Falls
[_] Christine
[x] ET
[_] Children of the Corn
[_] My Boss' Daughter
[x] Maid in Manhattan
[x] Monsters, Inc.
[x] War of the Worlds
[x] Rush Hour
[x] Rush Hour 2

Total so far: 71
[_] Best Bet
[x] How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
[x] She's All That
[_] Calendar Girls
[_] Sideways
[x] Mars Attacks
[_] Event Horizon
[x] Ever After
[x] Forrest Gump
[_] Big Trouble in Little China
[x] The Terminator
[x] The Terminator 2
[x] The Terminator 3

Total so far: 79

[x] X-Men
[x] X-Men 2
[x] X-Men 3
[x] Spider-Man
[x] Spider-Man 2
[_] Sky High
[_] Jeepers Creepers
[_] Jeepers Creepers 2
[x] Catch Me If You Can
[x] The Others
[_] Freaky Friday
[_] Reign of fire
[x] Cruel Intentions
[_] Cruel Intentions 2
[x] The Hot Chick
[x] Shrek
[_] Shrek 2

Total so far: 89

[x] Swimfan
[_] Miracle
[_] Old School
[x] K-Pax
[x] Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
[x] Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
[x] Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
[_] A Walk to Remember
[_] Boogeyman
[_] The 40-year-old-virgin
[_] The Hills Have Eyes

Total: 94

5 orgasms : sex me up

[25 Mar 2006|11:07pm]
[ mood | pleased ]

oh IM THE MAN!!!
like a year ago i left my msn up and my brother told sum1 i was pregnant and he was so convincing that they believed him and i hav FINALLY GOTTEN HIM BACK! he went off to his room and left his msn up and so i changed his name(just slighty...like i didnt change the beginning so he wudnt notice but at the end he had "shot sum-random-footballer-i-dont-kno" and i added "(he has the nicest butt iv EVER seen...EVER)".

AND this chick came online and said "hey" so i confessed to her how "i was gonna ask shani to marry me" (shani being his girlfriend) and was all "do u think she'll say yes?" "y not? is it cos im ugly?" and all this crap!

then i cudnt help it i went to his room and told him and he came rushing out and the chick had gone offline so he cudnt b like "it was my sister" and he dont hav her number so he cudnt txt her and the best part: ITS ONE OF SHANI'S BEST FRIENDS...oh the beautiful fluke of it all! mwa hahahaha! revenge is sweet!

5 orgasms : sex me up

[06 Dec 2005|07:59pm]
[ mood | blah ]

peer support was fun even tho it was lame. it let me indulge in fantasys about the tomorrow series and now ben is my lovely love-Lee. lol god wudnt it b lovely if life was a novel? even wen things are bad the hero and heroine still fall for eachother and there is happiness and love. love *sigh* i love Love-and i always will deep down no matta wat i might say in the futre i love it always.

we made headrushes and ran round in the pouring rain screaming and laughing and became soaking wet. i felt...i cant describe it even. just wonderful and (dare i say it)-happy. i felt happy. ive always loved the rain and thunder and lighting storms. make fun of me if u will but i love them. oh and hail. and dont get me started on how beatuiful and incredible snow is.

thanks for the magic my darlings. xxoo

5 orgasms : sex me up

[16 Nov 2005|12:45pm]

my boyfriend turned out to be gayCollapse )

4 orgasms : sex me up

[13 Nov 2005|05:49pm]
may i just say right here, right now(hehe thats a song) that IF u are a creepy stalkery type(or a self-inviting type) and uv been reading my, or other peoples entries without being added to our friends list then u cant complain if u read shite u dont like about urself or other ppl because wat do u expect? i dont mind ya'll reading mine(i doubt any1 reads mine but wat the hey) but yea it is a diary entry and we bitch here because thats wat u do in journals and if we dont kno uv invited urself in we cant mind our p's and q's now can we?

anika moa has dimples and i dont care wat u guys think i rekon jessica simpson is funny lol BOOTS. alison remember boots in england? haha! england yes iv been its still shocking i reckon.

i worked today. i hada meltdown last night. yea i hate....that thing thats rong with me(shhhh manisha/marty)
5 orgasms : sex me up

wallpaper [06 Nov 2005|10:17pm]
guy fawkes....meh.

watshername needs to be locked away...shooting fireworks at people is really really fucked up. i was so scared but christopher was so cute trying to protect me!! still i kno this guy who has like one eye because of fireworks...locked away please please...i value my eyes and alison has real pretty eyes it wud be such a waste.

i dont fit in.

everyone has code names for everyone else and secrets and i am left out.

oh well. my suture with my cats is lerking. fucking simon. makes u wonder doesnt it? is the joy of friends worth the pain of losing them and finding out wat fucking unreasonable wankers they really are. finding out u mean nothing to them. the worst part is ive gotta do drama with him. like mr's already planned our sheilah winn entry for next year....goddamnit! who the fuck spread those lies!?!?!?!?! i fucking hate them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3 orgasms : sex me up

[28 Oct 2005|12:15pm]
[ mood | geeky ]

so yea im at home because after 3 fucking days my gut wrenching period pains are refusing to DIE. plus i am doing painting.

paint is fun for awhile
but then it spreads,
onto ur hands,
onto ur clothes,
paint is pretty for a while,
pretty colours, pretty paterns,
but then u slip,
and it is ugly,

basically my darlings, the moral of the story is....if u remove the T from paint, it becomes PAIN. never forget this. NEVER FORGET THIS!!!!

"young mens love lies, not truely in their hearts-but in their...(looks at crotch)....eyes"

will sum1 please fucking bring back Gaia? i miss her why'd they hav to end? i miss ed too. hehe...."shred" lol. love him

sex me up

[25 Oct 2005|04:29pm]
everyone! add flavman44 to your friends list.......tis marty!
2 orgasms : sex me up

[25 Oct 2005|04:03pm]

fuck art and fuck uncontrolable tears!!!!!


did u kno that


can be re-arranged as


hehe im lame.

sex me up

[24 Oct 2005|11:18am]
[ mood | loved ]

i hava headach and my whole body hurts and i am about to walk all the fucking way to elspeths...its not far but it is with sore legs/ass/muscles i didnt even kno exsisted!!
i am just counting down till the holidays. i am gonna jump in that purple car and drive away with my love.

"u are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
u make me happy wen skies are grey.
u'll never know dear,
how much i looove u,
so please dont take,
my sunshine away."

thats our song(kinda). i call him my sunshine now lol. he calls me princess. he always has even b4 we went out...he also calls me miss bella and miss bella-anne, bell and bella-anne-but NEVER bella(unless he is angry. he really makes my life worth living. makes me happy makes all the bad things go away. wen im with him i think of nothing bad except sumtimes i think about him leaving me to go home like he always has to and then i start to cry. its so silly but i cry alot even wen i am happy so its not too weird considering. then he cuddles me and im all better.

but anyway i wanted to ask u all-DO U BELIEVE IN FATE?

i hav this calender, its from like 2003 and it has a cat/kitten for every day of the year. anyway its pinned on my wall and its open on december...now im sure uv all heard me rant and rave about all the december babies that i hav or hav had in my life..but we were standing next to the calender and he was talking to my brother and i look at the calender and right there on december 27 (marty's birthday) is an adoarable kitten...and i look at the name...ITS NAME WAS SUNSHINE.

so do u believe in fate? because i sure fucking do!!

lol wats next? ours names writtn in the stars? ahhh perfection:)

i'm late i'm late!!!

7 orgasms : sex me up

thank you my darlings:) [14 Oct 2005|04:05pm]
i wud like to say that i really appreciate everything everyone said in my entry wen i got a bit out of wack. i think about shit waaaay to much and sumtimes it all gets too much to bare and i freak out and my last lj is a great example of such a thing!! but it is really lovely to know that i hav people like you all in my life because its u guys that make life worth living and i am sorry if i ever doubt u or watever...just kno that i am insane and stupid but i generally mean well. you are all so wonderful and all i can say is HALILUYAH!!!!! i love u:)

everyone must come see my birthday present from alyssa!!! a giant jimi hendrix experience poster!!! its bright yellow!! i luuuuurve it!! thank you so much!! and thank u so much everyone else for my other presents too!!!

P.S in the media studies test on the matrix i wrote the blue pill or the YELLOW pill. wtf???
2 orgasms : sex me up

[08 Oct 2005|09:05pm]
life just keeps on getting complicated and fucked up and there is like no reason why it should. i know everythings my own fault. like if i tried harder in school it wouldnt be so hard, i wudnt be disapointed with the marks and i'd be mor confident about suceeding in life. however because i know that i can and i just dont its the sign that i AM going to be a failure. and because i kno that i am gonna be a failure it makes me try even less. and because marty is so perffect i just dont wana think about anything else so i spend my time txting him wen i could b digging myself OUT of the whole i knowingly walked straight into. and then because he means to much 2 me im just waitng for it 2 fall to pieces because i hav never felt this way before and im just so sure im gonna get my heart broken because he is 2 good for me.
and everyones always angry with me. i never intentionally do things to hurt ppl and i rekon everyone probably just hates me and thinks im a bad oerson. like even the ppl i think like me dont really like me. maybe they just feel sorry for me...that must be it because i dont understand y anyone in their right minds wud be friends with a person like me. because who am i really? maybe the inner me cud get friends but im 2 retarded and paranoid and scared to let that person out. except to like a few ppl in private. one of them being colin, whom i found out never really knew me which is funny because I thought he knew me best. and other chris turned out to be a complete fucking liar so it makes u wonder WHO CAN U TRUST? which is y i am emotionally involved with the dylan thing even tho it has nothing to do with me and everyone else just wishes id crawl into a hole and leave it the fuck alone. i dont want alison to be feeling like im feeling about chris. because it suc and u feel so fucking STUPID. sum body is lying. and its sux because if i want alison to be happy/not hav a lying cheating boyfriend but if thats true then one of my best friends is lying anyway. not that i hav any significance to ppl at the moment anyway. do u ever get that? feel like u cud just drift way and no1 wud notice? maybe a few. lord knows i dont even kno y im even writing cos no1 replys 2 my comments anyway!!!

god damn im a retard and this all started because i discovered that i AM fat bastard. "i eat because im unhappy....and im unhappy because i eat" wish i cud be shaved like how they shave ham. i cant be fucked proof reading this so i hope it makes enough sense. and please dont say mean comments. im bruising like flower petals at the moment.
6 orgasms : sex me up

[02 Oct 2005|04:00pm]
yay! i hav a job!!!!!!! i am now a waitress(kind of thing) at the restruant on one tree hill!!! im so excited! i get paid decently too!! gee golly now THERES a change! (fucking bakers delight) anyways a turned 17 last thursday. it was kinda crap but i now hav a job because of my grandparents preference of restruant! thanks for the lovely txts and presents my darlings!! i love u all! but i but again point out if i dont get wasted these holidays i will CRY and will sum1 PLEASE organise sumfin? i neeeed u! yea and guess wat? alex dropped out of school! i miss u guys!
sex me up

[13 Aug 2005|07:04pm]
hello im wasted. i am talking to ppl and guess wat? it IS john who has the same birthday as marty! i hope i dont wake up and find the rapist jacking off outside my room, like i kno hes mor interested in penises but duuuuuuuuuuuuuude wudnt that b FREAKY??????

we lit strawberry insence and played hendrix loud....i think it was loud. them they pulled out and left me like a used condom!!!!! hahahahaha i love u really. i dooooooooo. smooch smooch. CIAO
1 orgasm : sex me up

[16 Jun 2005|05:19pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

wow i broke with colin on monday! nearly two years wasted and now hes being scary and stalkerish. creepy

3 orgasms : sex me up

Oh Teenagers...!!! [01 Jun 2005|10:27am]
gosh such a long time and no update!

last night i had OutLoud practice and we r getting mor bits and pieces of our play which is called "Outside, Inside My Head" and u ALL MUST COME AND SEE IT.(TAPAC, second week of the july holidays-i'll have actual dates eventually.) and i shall b playing "Ally". some random guy who doesnt come to our class is gonna b playing Ally's boyfriend so its gona b pretty random...IT WAS NEARLY ISAAC!! but i was like "that'll be really really weird...hes my friend...hes like my YOUNGER brother" and she chose Nick instead(no i do not kno who nick is).
Anyway im writing this to anounce that manishas sickness is spreading. the romantic bug is in the air. NOW PPL AT OUTLOUD ARE HASSLING ME AND SAYING TAUTAHI AND I ARE INLOVE!!!!!!!(namely Sam) y oh y must u all think these things.....THEY'RE NOT TRUE. y cant i be left in peace and not become twisted with the idea that ppl might like me cos i only ever get disapointed. godamn! im gonna get u a romance novel manisha and u can get it out of ur system there!! lol!

everyones photos are making me miss europe more!! oh how i love europe!!!!! me and marty might travel around it if he becomes a professional rugby player....shhhh manisha we r just friends. unless sum1 can PROVE otherwise. which u cant. (haha)

(oh and i cant WAIT till Emmas party...its been so long without any....;) i declare it SHALL be fun!)
3 orgasms : sex me up

[17 May 2005|04:12pm]
if life continues this way im going to have to take up smoking...(plus cigarettes are so fucking sexy...and lets face it-i need sum added sex appeal.)

please, be a dear and kill me? thanks.
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